A love letter to the Sun

Dear Sun,

I know we have had our fair share of disputes. I curse you in the summer for being too bright, and I long for the cold air and clouds to make you and your heat disappear. I am very hard on you, and I realize, that you might be sensitive. After two weeks of grey cloud cover, and no hint of your bright, smiling face this winter, I am begging you to make an appearance. I haven't been the nicest to you, but I hope you are a forgiving orb and will come out to play for awhile.

Sincerely,
Your humble fan

Seriously, the grey cloud cover has gotten quite old. It makes me want to curl up under the electric blanket and not move. This can be a fun thing in moderation, but with no hint of sun for that long has made it downright depressing.

My mom told it might snow in Florida this morning. I never saw a drop of snow when I lived there, and this miracle happens when I'm not there.

Today, I was planning on doing some pre-move cleanouts. Clothes that I don't wear, but cannot part with, will now be parted with. I was considering getting the books I want to take to the post office and shipping them to the folks. It's still too early, yeah yeah I know, but doing stuff like this makes me feel in control over the situation.

On Option #2 friend: Today we were going to hang out, with our plans dependent on the weather. She mentioned the discovery museum with the kids or if weather permits, a day in the park. So, I get a text message before 8am this morning (which woke me up, grumble) and then I hope on facebook. I ask what she's thinking for plans. Her idea was to go to get her kid's hair cut, go out to lunch, go back to her place to play with the kids, then have a dinner. That is just a bit too much for me in one day. First of all, I can't afford to go out for lunch AND dinner, I'm trying to be frugal right now. Second, that is a LONG, LONG day. Too long if you ask me. So, I let her know I could do lunch OR dinner, and received no response, and then poof she was offline. Internet failing, or annoyance that I want to spend some of the day with myself? I don't know. But the point is, this is option 2 friend, and this dialogue between us represents why I am not comfortable just going to live with her right now. The last month...maybe, but 4 months of no me time would be way too rough. She is in a very needy place right now, and unfortunately, I am needy in my own way right now, and that does not make for a good pair of roommates. She needs constant friendship and a shoulder regarding her divorce, and I need time and space to save, get my stuff together, study, and go to school. I'm not a big jerk, and I help when I can, but I am just not able to be a non-sexual emotional partner to her. And I just sent her a private message for damage control. And, my friend wants me to watch movies with her tonight, which sounds much more appealing to me.

I did get a new health insurance plan. My old one had gone up to 170 per month with dental, and that was just too much for me. And no, my boss does not pay for my health insurance...remind me to never get into that kind of situation again. So, I shopped around and found an ok plan for 80 a month. I get two visits a year at the copay price, and because I'm not sickly and rarely go to the doctor, I went for it. I also have the option of tacking on dental insurance, which I do need for my teeth woes have no end, for 25-40 per month. I am very happy with those options, and I will be paying much less money per month than I have been. I could also get vision coverage, and boy, would mama love a new pair of glasses or even try out contacts. VSP is 16 a month, but they make you pay it in a lump sum of 200 upfront. I don't know how I feel about that because I'm crossing my fingers that I will have benefits at whatever new job I have, and I really don't want to throw down money like that right now on something I don't really NEED.

I do NEED to pay my over 200 to the DMV to renew my license and registration. Really, CA, 200??? I even called the DMV and asked if that was right. Apparently, rates have doubled in CA. Thanks, Arnie!

I chatted with another friend who used to work with me. She and her hubby moved to North Carolina. I told them of my moving plans, and they agreed that CA was just too expensive to live. They miss the food here, but are happy they made the move. They have a baby, and it is nearly next to impossible for an average working class family to survive here. Which brings me to another reason I want to move. I want options. Options to buy a home, options to have a kid and not go bankrupt in the process, options to have a real savings account for real vacations. I could do that here in CA, if I got two jobs. Not a very likely option, nor an appealing one.

I thought if I started blogging everyday, I would eventually run out of things to say and have a clear head. Blogging has had the opposite effect on me, and now I can't shut my cyber mouth. I haven't been perfect with daily updates, but I've stopped tagging my posts because they are such a mishmosh of things.

I think I will treat myself to a nice breakfast of sausage and eggs, let that settle, and hit the gym. I hope I don't see Sweet Cheeks.