2010

Good morning, 2010. I'm interesting in seeing what you bring me this year, or maybe what I bring you.

For New Year's, I did not want to just sit at home. I had a couple of options for plans, but they were not *really* options because my plans had to include the bf, or I would really be an epic jerk.

I wanted to go to my favorite local Italian restaurant. I even dressed up a little fancy for it. They were closed. We headed over to the Cheesecake Factory, which is pretty good, but their menu is so overwhelming sometimes. We went in, and I immediately layed my eyes upon the wonderful beauty of a red velvet cheesecake in the display window.

I ordered myself a crispy orange chicken, with veggies and rice. The chicken was not so crispy, but very flavorful. I love that sauce. Dinner was so filling that I could not even think about the red velvet cheesecake.

After dinner, we went to see Avatar. I had no idea what it was about, so I went in with an open mind and 3d glasses. The movie theater was packed. I had no idea that going to the movies was such a popular thing to do on New Year's Eve. The movie blew my mind. I loved the concept, the psychological issues confusion of worlds, the special effects, the characters...well pretty much everything! These kind of movies that can be visually beautiful and have a great story are pretty amazing to me. Anyone want to go with me to Pandora?

We came home after the movie, and vegged out in front of the tube. Instead of champagne, I took 2 tylenol for a brewing 3d glasses headache. I called my niece and nephew at a very late hour (they are 3 hours ahead), and chatted with them for a bit. I also had fun sending and receiving New Year's texts. My texts are now free, so it's fun for me now. I suppose it's the new way of doing things.

I had another crazy dream. Let me start by saying that I'm a Pisces. In astrology, Pisces are the masters of dreams. I am a textbook Pisces, and I dream very vividly and can usually remember them in great detail the next morning. My dream last night was a mix of old college friends intertwined with scenes from Avatar. There was a group of us walking through a mall (which resembled Pandora). Two of my friends had baby demons that lived off the flesh of humans. Only a few of us knew about it, and the two friends loved their babies and would not harm them. So we strolled the mall as the baby demons attacked. Eventually, the mall-goers caught on and started chasing us around -- up and down stairs, to eventually outside, where there were floating islands and huge cliffs. We somehow got back in the mall and tried to escape, but the exits were closed and the baby demons were going nuts. Totally weird.

I made it to the gym yesterday. The scale says I lost 3 pounds. Still not sure where it's coming from, or if that's just a natural fluctuation of weight. Either way, I feel good about going, and I even felt the beginnings of a new muscle gaining strength.

I got an email from my teacher yesterday about our last assignment. He gave me very high compliments on my resume assignment, and I was very pleased. This Tuesday, I enroll in my final four classes, and there we have it.

2009 was a wild year for me in terms of my relationships. I gave up on my relationship, moved out, met someone new, tried that for about 6 months, that fell through, went back with ex and moved back in. It really shook my shit up. Not just about how I feel about specific people, but really clarifying what kind of life I want for myself and what kind of partner I hope to share that with. That was the year I realized how isolated the bf was from people, and how I got sucked into that hole with him. I have always had people around me in life. In high school, I had my jew crew. In college, I had our fun, slacker crew. The bf doesn't like people around and gets very irritated if I want to have people over. It was very unhealthy for me to get into that mess with the bf for so long, and it took a toll on me. But, that toll led to some awakenings for me about how much I've changed over the years, and my wants and needs express that change.

So, 2010 is looking like a year of finishing school and a cross country move. I think that's a pretty full plate already for day 1.